Once Upon A Time

Welcome to my mind's humble abode. As much as I want to tell my whole life's story, I can't because it's not about to end anytime soon. You'll just have to settle to pieces of it -- for now.

"It can cause a lot of isolation. There can be anger and rage. It can cause pain and suffering but you can get through it. It can make you stronger. It doesnt have to destroy your life. It can make you fight back and it can make you spend the rest of your life protecting others."

Derek Morgan, Criminal Minds

perfect words. just perfect.

and true as well.

#just putting it out there

Holiday. Holy week.

Happy Easter! 

One question, though: Are you happy?

Well I associate easter sunday with happiness. It’s supposed to be filled with light, jolly feeling,…of light pinks and baby blues ♥

That’s not the point of this post. The last three days wasn’t really productive if you ask me. And for the last day of staycation, the most challenging I did was to do the Cups routine. Oh, you know…the one in the Pitch Perfect movie that goes ♪ when I’m gone, when I’m goooo-o-ne…Yep that’s the one. It was fun for a while but then my arms got tired ;D That felt good you know. Challenging my brain to think and follow some sort of confusing pattern of doing a routine while singing.

Leading to my search for dance routines :)

Towards a wedding video of Keone and Mari ♥

So sweeeeeet! The video was up a month ago and i’ve just seen it now. And they got married last June…

I have nothing else to say. Hahah

Am going back to watching videos.

Ta-ta!

Because Why The Fuck Not

Reblogged from fothermuckers

hobbititus:

If you reblog this before May 16 2013, I will write your URL down and stick it in a jar or whatever. Over the summer I will take the jar of URL’s and I will scatter them around. They may get taped to public loos, they may be thrown into crowds at festivals, or they may get put under napkins at restaurants. 

Some one may find your URL, and who knows, they could message you telling you where they found it. 

You have until May 16 to reblog. 

(Source: isohels)

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Okay I just deleted the first post of the year. It’s typical of me to rant about everything and I’ve decided that since its the first day of the new year, I should say something nice :)

First, I’d like to say that I won’t be going to work tomorrow. (Not that that counts as something nice but I’m just saying that I’m not). I am going to try to condition myself to love my current job. Ironic, huh :) Tomorrow I will wake up early in the morning and I will try to be productive. No wait … I am gonna do something productive and deleting e-mails doesn’t count. Okay, so what I am not inspired, motivated, nor enthusiastic about my work now. So what if I am not passionate about my work now. I am trying to turn that around. Maybe it’s not the work that’s the problem. Maybe it’s me. Maybe I lack the productivity and feeling of responsibility. Maybe I’m an adult still thinking like a teenage kid without a care in the world. I am gonna change that. I don’t really make new year’s resolution but I guess this year, I might. Why? I’m a part of the big man’s world now. I am no longer a part of the world where people dont care about where the money comes from and how they earn it, the world where you’re mistakes are just gonna reflect on numbers. Well, come to think of it, money is in the form of number hahah.. I was referring to grades in school, btw. :))

Now I have to man up. Be responsibile and not so reckless all the time. I can’t always tell my boss “Next time I’ll do better”, “Next time I’ll meet the deadlines”. I have to be ahead now. I have to do my best. I know my work sucks and there’s little to no growth at all in that company but I’ll have to call out to the younger me that believes that it’s not about the money. I can always grow as a person and as a professional without being promoted right? I can always learn from other people no matter what their position in the company is :) 

Be kind, 2013 :) Better yet, be AWESOME!

Have a great one, everybody!

Workload and holidays

Honestly, I’ve typing and deleting for a couple of minutes now. I don’t know how to start this blog entry since I haven’t written anything or posted anything for the past three months. I’ve been very occupied with work and I never thought it would take over my life. When I was still at school, I was always about being frugal and thrifty. Wjen I got a job, I can’t even save a P100. It’s quite shocking. I was expecting to save more on a shorter period of time but that never happened. On my first pay, I said I’d spend my money to buy the things I really needed (aka the reason why I took the job in the first place eventhough I didn’t really like it). So, I bought them. Zero money. On the second pay, I don’t even know what I bought and suddenly it was all gone as well. Same thing for the third and fourth paycheck. On my fifth and 13th month pay, I said would buy all the gifts given that budget  but that didn’t happen either. I got so excited on having money to spend that I spent it all. One minute the money was there and it’s all gone. Well…almost gone (AGAIN).

I promised I won’t upgrade my lifestyle once I had the money to spend on things that are tempting but not really necessary. I guess for the first time in my life, my new year’s resolution is to save money cause I haven’t saved a single cent.

I’ve read a lot of saving tips online ever since I was still in school. How many times do I have to remind myself to SPEND LESS THAN I WHAT I EARN! I even prepared for the day that I got employed. I had this little organizer where I put my money under different categories. Money for expenses, fun, emergency and retirement. At first I would put my money there but now, all that’s left are payslips and bank withrawal slips. I don’t know what happened.

STOP SPENDING. STOP SPENDING. STOP SPENDING.

Maybe it’s the holiday season. Maybe it’s my lack of spending control. I don’t know but this has to stop N-O-W. Well, okay not now NOW. 

I’ve been thinking about new cellphone, new camera, new tablet, new bag, new shoes, new printer. Come to think of it, I have  two working cellphones. They’re not smart/android phones but they work well for calling and texting. I do have a camera, eventhough I sahre it with my mother. I do have a laptop, it may lag sometimes but it’s still working quite well. I have a bag that fits my stuff just right. I have two pairs of shoes for work. I have a printer. It may not be wireless but it’s still good as new. I promised not to upgrade my lifestyle but I that I think about is new technology. Ugh! Honestly I don’t need that. At the end of the day, I’ve made a decision that those things are not necessary. Instead, I’ll just buy a new pair of glasses and have the wi-fi installed again. Hopefull after this holiday shopping’s over. I’ll be able to save.

It’s just so sad to think that I’ve working overtime and on weekends and yet I couldn’t save a thing.  Just a sad thought.

Your Career Is Your Responsibility

Wow so I’m finally able to actually publish this post after four long months…

Me and my philosophy :)

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Happy Thoughts and Occasional Rants.

Isn’t this picture lovely? Sunday afternoons in the backyard and all ;) I wish we had one of those. You know.. —a backyard. 

Okay suddenly my current mood’s gone bipolar. Can I just say how irritating it is when the same people asks you “Do you have a job [already]?” again and again and a-g-a-i-n. Honestly, dude, can’t I just text you when I do already have one? Oh, wait I don’t have to do that because once my mom and our housekeeper knows about it, the whole town will know as well. I’m pissed. Why do you care? It’s not like you’re gonna benefit from me having a job. Can’t they just leave me alone.

No one really knows that I do have a job but I haven’t started yet. Just awhile ago someone asked me again and I had to spill it. And there was a follow up question which she made it sound like she’s not seriously asking but she gonna ask anyway. She asked how much my salary was and I’m like what the fuck?! I don’t even know if that is an ethical question. It’s like asking a woman how old she is. It’s really upsetting and I don’t know—IRRITATING. And know she knows and when she talks to my mom, then my mom will know then everybody knows horray!

What’s my problem?

You know, it’s really not a big deal [about] people knowing that I have a job. It’s just I don’t really want to be talked about. I don’t even like talking about things like this to people. I can talk for hours about my adventures and mishaps but not this kind of things. This kind of topic doesn’t seem to ever end though. Back when I was still at school people would ask are you still a part of the honor roll and now that I’ve graduated THE QUESTION will be are you working? Followed by, where do you work? and lastly, how much is your pay? And there are only two expressions in their faces when they hear my answer—they’re either excited and happy for me or upset and find my job disappointing. Whatever. Ugh, it’s not like they’re the ones who’s gonna be affected if I work this job. 

Bring me back to my happy place, please?

I never thought I could actually make a blog post this long. Thanks to people like her I have something to rant about. 

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"There are things in this world more powerful than words…"

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“If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans.”

I was reading an article by Bitsie Tulloch and she mentioned something about a quote told to her by a friend. It was “If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans.” It’s true, though. Come to think of it, at some point we try to plan to live a certain life for ourselves when in fact everything is out of our hands. We end up in some crossroad and decide on which direction to take even though we really don’t what to find at the end of the road.  We think we know what happens next but we really don’t. When asked about what my future plans are I would usually say I really don’t know […bahala na…]. It’s true I haven’t laid out a concrete plan but I do have something in mind. Right now, it’s not even how I expected it to be. I sometimes feel that some people find it easy to lead the life they want, the job they want and unfortunately, I don’t. Maybe I’m not humble enough as I thought I was. I guess I should surrender everything to Him. Maybe that’s what I was meant to learn from all of this. I should stop being jealous of people. I just have to admit that there is Someone bigger than any of us—who knows more than any of us.

Amor Deliria Nervosa a.k.a LOVE

According to Google Dictionary, Delirium means:

  1. An acutely disturbed state of mind that occurs in fever, intoxication, and other disorders and is characterized by restlessness, illusions, and incoherence of thought and speech
  2. Wild excitement or ecstasy




After reading Delirium, I don’t feel delirious. It’s more like agitated [because of the ending]. Too much? OK, maybe I’m just sad hahah!

I thought I’ll never get through with this book. The story seems to be very slow moving. I was trying to keep my hopes up that somehow in the middle it’ll  get better.  But, nooooooooooooooooo, it didn’t. It was good but not good enough until the last 10 to 20 pages.  Better late than never, right?

No worries. I was still able get to that moment when you’re reading really fast and holding your breathe in the last few pages. Then I started tearing up when Alex got shot and got caught. Cheesy right? You have no idea how pissed off I am after Alex got caught. Damn! So much for love and sacrifice. It seems I care more about what happens to Alex than Lena. She’s already in the Wilds so she can do whatever she wants. Go find her mother. Go to the mobile park. Do whatever. I’m not even sure if she can help Alex in anyway.

At least I have a reason to continue on to Pandemonium :) 

I don’t usually rate a book nor compare them but I think I’ll make an exception. It’s because I liked [LOVED!!] Divergent series than this one. That’s only my opinion. Maybe some will like Delirium better. One can never tell :)

now I’ll be reading the Bonus Material included in the Delirium special edition. Just Q&A stuff…getting to know more about the author and the making of Delirium…

Enlighten me please ♥

..afterwards, off to Pandemonium!

********************UPDATED************************

I started reading Pandemonium. After 50 pages of no glimpse of Alex, I decided to scan the whole book for him. Sigh I think there is no Alex. He only appeared on the last page. He had to be the last word. Should I continue reading? Honestly, I’m just reading it just to find out what happened to Alex. 

Plus, I am reading spoilers now. LOL nothing much to say other than the relationship between Julian and Lena which I don’t like, btw. 

I think I’m hating this already. Of course, I still have to continue. I started it so I’m going to end it.

Just please let it be Alex in the end.

Poems and all

Before I go to sleep, I’d like to share this poem to the world.

I usually hate reading poems especially the classics, you know the ones with all the thee and thou and all the similes and metaphors because I seriously can’t understand a word that it says… but once in a while I get to read a simple poem that really touches my heart. Maybe I should give Shakespeare a second chance, maybe I will be able to understand it somehow this time…

Anyways, nevermind my blabbing about Shall I compare thee to a summer’s day :P Here’s a popular poem that I’d like to leave you all tonight, today, whatever…

I Carry Your Heart With Me by E.E. Cummings

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)

I am never without it (anywhere I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet )

I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)

and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

PS. I came across this poem in a book haha! Read Delirium by Laura Oliver. More about this book soon!

SO. I’m done reading both Divergent and Insurgent. What a cliffhanger right? Ending a story with the line “Then the shouting begins…” Oh, the pain! (Torture much)

And now, we wait. Fall of 2013, right? I’ll be one year older when the third one comes out. LOL. It’s wise to take note that I have to re-read the two books before taking on the third one to refresh my memory—I always forget the details of the books that I read after some time.

That’s half the point [of] why I am making a blog post right now. 

The other half would be about Free Four. Another POV :) I’ve talked about this in my previous post, I think. Anyway, I had a hard time finding an online copy of the whole thing [the one on Facebook won’t cooperate with me]. I don’t give up easily so I found one >:) . I had to encode it myself so I have a soft copy that I can read. \(n_n)/

♥Random thought♥ I just wish, when the trilogy’s over, Veronica would write the whole thing in Four’s perspective. I am willing to re-read this story all over again in his POV! 

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I just checked Veronica Roth’s blogspot and it says there that it’s available for download already -.- Anywhooo…I promise once I open a paypal account, I shall buy the e-reader version :) In the meantime, for those, who like me, can’t download the stuff and can’t seem to read the whole thing on FB,  here’s FREE FOUR in jpeg :))

And for those who can buy and wants to have a permanent copy on your computer, here’s the link:

http://www.harpercollins.com/books/Free-Four-Veronica-Roth?isbn=9780062237422&HCHP=TB_Free+Four

alegrias-me:

Alegrias In Spanish, the word “alegrias” means happiness, joy, and gladness. Whether you are a guy or a girl, who’s struggling in love or life, I hope these inspring quotes featured in this blog can eventually guide you to your happiness.

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alegrias-me:

Alegrias In Spanish, the word “alegrias” means happiness, joy, and gladness. Whether you are a guy or a girl, who’s struggling in love or life, I hope these inspring quotes featured in this blog can eventually guide you to your happiness.

Your dystopian kind of story

Sometimes I hate being able to finish a book I’m reading. It’s because I become idle afterwards unless I find a good book to read again. Anyways, after reading The Perks of Being A Wallflower I decided to wait till the next book sale to buy a new book. Books are 20% off by then XD

So last Sunday, I bought two books: Insurgent and Divergent, both by Veronica Roth. I found out about this book from Elle Fowler’s Glitterature. I’m trying to expand my book selection I guess since Harry Potter and Twilight’s over. {Yes, I only bought books by JK Rowlingm Stephenie Meyer, and Haruki Murakami back then.} I’m already half way through Divergent and I’m really liking it. I’ve been reading teen novels for a while and their gist are all the same, I guess. After awhile I will probably get bored but until then I’ll continue reading books about a female protagist being in love with a tough guy with a soft side again and again and again :) #agirlcandream

I looked up the website and I found this…

http://www.scribd.com/fullscreen/99354489?access_key=key-1w5zfktfv3kzctohvw1d

It’s a scene from Divergent as told by Four, whose real name I found out was Tobias. Sucks to have to find out about little spoilers like that. Shouldn’t have searched the net before finishing the first book. It’s too late for regrets. At least, I still get a little surprise as to how Tris will be able to know his real name…or so I think…

Cute little PANDAS!!!

Just can’t get over them :)

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